I'm Freaking Out! How to manage Cell Memory as we get older

Feb 01, 2022


Kate Saint Clair


I panicked a lot when I was a child.

After age 4, I worried and was anxious until I learned the truth about how Intuition worked at age 27.

Learning how to label energy and understanding intellectually where and how thoughts and feelings of others were coming into my own energy, changed my entire life. 

I was able to go places I couldn’t go before; enjoy concerts and grocery stores, without leaving in a panic. I thought I’d figured it out.

As I approached my 40th birthday, the panic slipped back in.

I was on a ferris wheel with my 9-year old son inside a store. The wheel stopped at the top and I began to panic. Images of it staying at the top with us locked-in spun through my mind.

At the thought of being trapped, my face blushed with terror. I imagined that I’d pass out and my family would watch my body drop 50-ft to the ground.

My little boy calmly said, “Mama, tell me about your day when we are at school.”

He focused me. He changed the subject into something he knew I’d love to talk to him about (he’s amazing isn’t he).

I began to talk; the panic subsided and the wheel began to move. I wasn’t going to be trapped, not that day.

A month later I was driving through Denver. Music on. Happy  and content. The traffic slowed and I felt the terror of panic fill my body again. What the hell?

Images of being trapped; not being able to get home to my children filled my mind.

I grabbed the rear-view mirror; looked into my own eyes and said, “It’s going to be okay. We’re moving again in a minute. I’ve got you. You’re going to be okay.”

Soon enough, we started driving again and I calmed back into my body.

I was frustrated with myself for freaking-out. This had happened a few times over the month.

What the hell is going on with me - I wondered.

When I got home I sat in my meditation chair, closed my eyes, and put my hand over my heart.

“What’s going on with these feelings of getting trapped and panicking?” I asked my Guides.

My Guides said:

The older you get, the more frequently you have died in the past - especially after the age of 40.

I opened my eyes in shock. The truth of it knocked me out of my meditation. I understood what they were saying.

It’s recent in the dawn of humanity on Earth that humans live long after the age of 40. Our recent ancestors are filled with death certificates barely making it to 65.

With the creation of travel, access to better nutrition and medicine, life saving medical procedures - and let’s face it - more opportunity for interesting lives; human beings are living much longer then we used to.

Therefore, we have younger deaths in our Cell Memory.

I must have a ton of trauma in my Cell Memory around age 40:

  • Getting trapped
  • Not being able to reunite with my family
  • Losing control after passing out
  • Feeling stuck and helpless
  • Having no one there to help me

Once I realized that it’s not a prediction but rather a Cell Memory issue, I knew how to process the fears and how to handle the way I dialogue with my mind and Soul to prevent it from happening again.

If you are having irrational fears or out-of-the-blue panic, here are a few things you can do to help:

  • Introduce yourself to Psychic Ainslie McLeod’s work @ www.AinslieMacLeod.com. His book, “The Instruction,” is the go-to book on Past Life study.
  • Sit quietly, put your hand on your heart and ask yourself questions like, “What are you remembering? What are you afraid of? Why are you feeling this way?”
  • Reassure yourself that no matter what is going on - you are going to be okay.
  • Book a doctor’s appointment if you feel it’s a physical issue.
  • Book a session with a skilled therapist if you feel it’s an emotional issue.
  • Find a skilled Psychic Medium if you feel you can’t get to the past life memory on your own.

There are many wonderful things you can do to get through and past these sometimes irrational fears and sensations.

Do something. You are worth the time and effort it takes to address the whispers your Soul is trying to get you to pay attention to.

There are many beautiful Souls here on earth with you who are waiting to help you on this life’s journey.

You didn’t come here alone, so don’t hesitate to reach out for help.

Don’t let that Cell Memory control the rest of this life. The past is in the past. Today is a new dawn. This is a new life for your beautiful Soul.

Enjoy it!

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